Secret Recipe to Life

Finally I got the job that I have been waiting for. It may not be the best job in the world or the highest paid job in the world but it will do for now. A fresh graduate always starts from the bottom. That's where he will gain experience and climb the ladder to the top. It has always been one of my dream to start a company of my own. Maybe one day I will.. one day. I'll never ever lose hope. Its not easy but its not impossible. Working part time as a salesman is not easy job too especially when you need to travel around to shops asking to them to buy your products. I've experience many kind of jobs before. From selling stationary, to selling ice cream and ever selling sports equipment. I do admit that these working experience can be a very valuable in the future especially when you wanna have your own business one day. What I can see from my experience is that always treat your workers well so they will work extra hard for you.



A rainy night beats the lovely night. Yes, another rainy night after a hot afternoon. It's not fun to drive around when your aircon died down on you especially when its in the hot afternoon with the scorching sun trying to burn you. Plus I need to travel around in it as I need it for work as a salesman. My car was definitely hot alright. Hot enough to bake a cake if you can imagine. Talking about cake, I just got back from a lovely yet bitter night from Secret Recipe. Order Chocholate Indulgence as well as the White Chocolate Macadamia with complementary latte from Secret Recipe due to the Wow coupon. It was nice when you get to spend time with someone you love and cared for. Although there were not cheap. Its an experience to try cakes that we dont normally eat.

The night was cold yet I feel warm when I'm with her. Yes tonight may have been one of a bad night for us as I kind of mess it up. I wanted to draw portraits of her yet I'm just not good enough and alot of people were starring at her. I just feel so sorry. I didnt mean it to be like that. Just wanted her to surprise her with my drawings.

There are times I've been so childish till I forget there's many people around me. I never know what shame is until now. Yes I do feel ashamed at times but sometimes i just did it without knowing the consequences. I do find it hard to express my emotions. And yes, everyone at one time or another in their life may find it difficult to say how they feel.

I have a few problems that I need to counter. My Conflic Phobia. I am afraid of angry feelings or conflicts with people. Sometimes I just bury my head in the sand instead of addressing relationship problems. whats wrong with me. Can anyone show me how to overcome this?

Next is my Fear of rejection. Sometimes I do get scare and ending up alone that I would rather swallow up her feelings and put up with some abuse than take the chance of making anyone mad at me. I'm just so weak at this. I guess I feel the need to please someone everytime.

Also sometimes I find if hard to speak with confidence. Always agreeing to what people say and not give any opinion. I really need to change. I know its not easy but I really need to be someone who has confidence. I'm just afraid of losing her.



Thank for for always being so patience with me. I know at times I let you down over and over again. I'll never give up on you. You really mean so much to me. I wont ever let you down ever. I know its hard but I wont give up. I'll try to remind myself every morning if I have to. Yes I really am in love with you so deeply. Waking up knowing that there's someone loving you keeps you warm all the time. I wanna do the same for you too.

A romance that will never end. I may not be the most romantic guy in the world but I do know how to cook. Although my cooking can be limited but I can learn. Although I may be the most immature guy for you, but I know I wont be forever.

I love you so much <3<3<3